I’m “retarded”

I had a BAD day. I actually woke up and left for school this morning without my SPECTACLES! And mind you i have been wearing those iron rimmed things since kindergarden. As if that wasn’t enough, the bus just didn’t want to come when I reached my bus stop. In fact, for this entire week, I have always found myself being LOCKED out of the sidegate on days I have something on at 9. Why? Because the bus just REFUSES to let me alight unless it is JUST right by the side of the stop! And those freaking buses hogging the space in front of the bus i am taking is not making matters any better.

This led to a rendezvous affair of my shoes and the pavement, as i WALKED all the way under the SCORCHING sun to the main gate.

Meanwhile, I feel extremely guilty since I have barely touched my holiday homework. These days are EMO days… and i feel superficial.

What BUGS me

I wouldn’t say I’m a perfectionist, but little things just never fail to get my attention. For one, the ’soh’ note for my harmonica had just recently gone off key and I simply can’t bear to look at it anymore. That is, until it gets fixed, hopefully by tomorrow. Everytime I look at it, this off key note just resonates in my mind, and it drives me nuts. To put it that way, I am in fact actually very sensitive to such things. I will always notice things like for example an old lady or old man walking with much difficulty when I walk past them along the streets. While others may have overlooked them, my eyes will follow them right to the corner of my eyes…

To say it’s a blessing is one thing, because I become very observant. Then again, I notice every little thing, EVERY LAST ONE of them. A lonely, handicapped cat roaming around aimlessly, a dejected person in search of comfort… Sometimes I just feel tired. Noticing such things. The awkwardness, the unease.

Wouldn’t it be great if I could just find myself asleep and never wake up again. Although that’s escaping reality, but this self protecting mechanism is inbred in everyone. I need a break. And my lips are tearing.

Meanwhile, may Mr Tan get well soon.

Today was, IS a weird day.

Please don’t stop the music

So i recently went for the HC Harmoc concert. Thought they really performed well. It’s definitely quite different from NJ’s, and to be totally impartial, the two concerts are absolutely different, so comparing them wouldn’t be fair. But i have to admit that i do enjoy the song selection for OUR concert more. So GUYS, you have to come to NJ’s concert! It’s on the 6th of June and 9th of June, Friday around evening in our new performing arts theatre! Or Monday at the ESPLANADE. Sms me to order your tickets and do so ASAP!!! Or you’ll regret for not coming.

Anyway, Harmoc practice is going to be at full blast for the next two weeks. And for some miraculously reason, the band seems to have improved tremendously. I can sorta see why we won SYF Gold with Honours. Really looking forward to the actual concert. And hope that I won’t feel empty after the whole thing ends.

New Hobby

My new hobby is people watching. I find it extremely fascinating when I can still walk around the school noticing people I have never met before.

i’m cranky

the hols are a stone drop away and it seems the teachers just aint gonna let us off the hook that easily. tutorials and quizzez are piling up mountain high, and make up lectures are coming full force in our ways. so how can i not be cranky.