10:02 am 31 Dec 08

I once watched a movie.

Can’t really remember the title.

But there was this quote that really struck a chord within me when I heard it.

It was about taking chances.

It goes ” Your chances increase when you submit the application form.”

How true.

Every journey begins with the first step we take.

And it depends on whether we would want to take that first step or not.

And with this coming new year, do we really want to leave any regrets behind?

More so the case when it’s like the end of a chapter of our lives and the beginning of another when we graduate next year.

Albeit its indeed a little late, the clock’s still ticking.

And if you’re thinking of doing something to redeem yourself for denying yourself from certain things this year, now’s the time.

Time waits for nobody.

When?

As a child, I was a die-hard fan of the Power Rangers. Even after 17 years, I still am, as I hum to the tune “Go go power rangers” as easily as it were the ABCs. So you can imagine how badly I wanted to be one when I was little. It never did occur to me however, that those in the show were often in their late teens, well except for this once where this blue ranger was a kid…

So as I waited, eventually Pokemon and Digimon swept the nation; and it wasn’t long before I dreamt about owning my own little fire-breathing and water-spouting creature. But I grew up fast, as realisation hit me that no scientific experimentations could create any genetically modified animal that would be remotely alike to those that could be shrinked and kept into Pokeballs in any near future of mine.

Though, I still waited, and eventually, once again, disappointment came crashing down. I didn’t receive an invitation to study in Hogwarts, or any other magical institutions that existed for that matter when I turned twelve. So much for wands and spells, elves and giants and unicorns and fairies. I guess I’m a muggle after all.

No fret though, as I consoled myself. Cyclops, Jean, Storm and Wolverine are gonna appear at my doorstop one of these days to take me away for my undiscovered mutant ability. Alas, that didn’t happen as I pouted and continued to wait.

More recently, I was actually looking forward to the fact that the Cullens might have taken a liking towards me for god knows whatever reason that might be, and decided they would make me an immortal too… But damn, Singapore is way too bright and sunny for them to consider ever coming here. Well, there goes my theory, again…

As I continue to be disappointed and to be hopeful, there’s still the possibility that I might get bitten by a radioactive spider!  Well, at least that gives me something to look forward to for like another few years? Or, I might finally be old enough to be a power ranger…

When do I have to stop waiting?

When?

There’s a saying that goes, When you stop looking for the thing you want the most, it will eventually appear right in front of your eyes.

Maybe that’s what I should do. Expect nothing so that whenever something happens, I’ll be excited about it.

Slight Panic

Okay, I’m still not up for writing the post I said I wanted to previously, so please settle for something else meanwhile.

And while I write that, I feel utterly foolish. I mean, it almost feels like I’m responsible for informing everyone about what I am doing, or what I’m not doing. That totally shouldn’t be the case, should it? I shouldn’t be answering to anyone for my actions in my OWN blog for heaven’s sake.

I guess this is probably the main difference between keeping a diary and a blog.

When you write in a diary, it’s extremely personal. No reservations, no caution, no subconscious editting of events or thoughts that would make yourself look like a fool to others otherwise. It’s irrevoccably true in every sense of the word.

In a blog however, there’s always this subconscious self editting mind of yours to  negate events and thoughts that you would otherwise pen down in a diary because it’s too personal. That’s because you would have to answer to those people who may have read what you have written. The questions that entail is definitely not something anyone would look forward to.

 With that, I wonder why I actually still keep my blog? Even after all the initial Hoo-ha of owning a blog had ended.

I’ve seen my fair share of people deciding to shut their blogs down and revive them again. Some for good, some temporarily. At times, the thought does cross my mind.

And that piques my interest. So why exactly do I keep writing then?

To improve my English? Yeah, but  that’s definitely not the main reason. It’s superficial of me if I were to say that’s really my motivation for writing.

To keep in touch with friends? True, albeit how absurd it sounds. But definitely, there has to be a better reason for all this.

To vent my emotions? Maybe. A listening ear for all my rants and complaints. That’s pretty close I suppose.

But not just yet.

To prove that I’m not  a quitter?

I’ve no idea. As I lament at what I just wrote, I find it funny that I had drifted from the idea of wanting to complain how much homework I still have left, to this.

Merry Christmas

First and foremost,

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

Now that that’s out of the way, I’ve finally gotten Eclipse and Breaking Dawn. Nice presents. They’ve been out of stocks at Kino for like the past week?

So heed me words, “the early bird gets the worm.” Go early to the bookstores!

Wanted to write more but decided not to so as to not dampen the festive spirit. Yup, it’s going to be another depressing post. So till the next time.

Happy unwrapping presents today!

People who know will understand.

ABBA Gold

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